When things don't go as planned...

Some of you may know that I am a compulsive planner and that my life has been mapped out for a number of years. I thought for years and I do mean years that I was going to be a well known physician that went around the world offering free medical services. Now I am not even in college which has been extremely difficult for me. I have no doubt that I am doing exactly what it is the Father has called me to do but it is still almost like a loss. I feel as though I have lost part of who I am when the dream of being a doctor was put to bed. Sure, maybe one day I will be in the medical field but I don't know. I want to be completely alright with where I am at but it is not the easiest thing for me. I never thought I would be where I am.

On a happier note I do know a few things that I once was clueless about. God has been revealing to me my future a little bit at a time. There are things He has called me to do that I would have never pictured myself doing. At times it almost makes me nervous. The thought of doing the things I have been dreaming about the last few months makes me sick to my stomach. The Father has placed some really big dreams in my heart. Dreams of seeing people saved, changed radically and set on fire for Jesus Christ! Even though I think at times God has spoken to the wrong girl I know that I know I can do it in the Name of Jesus. We were called to do bigger and better things in this world and I want to be a part of it. I want to be a world changer, planet shaker, God lover! I pray that I am not completely off base in what I believe I have heard. I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens.

So, I am officially a part of the blog craze. Lord, help me now!

For those who know me at all, know that I can talk for hours about anything. Well I can write for hours on just about anything as well. I love the written word so much. Writing gives you time to think and make things sound so poetic. I think that over the years we have lost sight of how romantic writing really is. There is something to a love note or the confessions girls write in their diaries. Everyone is interested in other people's lives in some form or fashion or blogging would cease to exist.

My life is chaotic at all times. I am not sure if I would know what to do if my life finally did calm down. I have a family that is constantly grown. I am the youngest of three. Both my sister and brother are married and have daughter. My sister and her husband are expecting their second little girl this January. My parents are both teachers and my mom is in a masters program at Tarleton for Counseling. My brother is launching an online defensive driving course with my dad and that is my family.

I am all over the place. I work odd jobs. I love kids. The best thing that has happened to me in a long time was being accepted to YWAM this past summer. I will be leaving for a 5 1/2 month Discipleship Training School at the end of February. I will be in beautiful Oxford, New Zealand for 3 months followed by 2 months of outreach in an unknown region, my school will end with a two week stay and graduation in Israel.

Well that is me and my life. God is the center of it all!

Be blessed!